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Post by Yeoman Azuma Stadi on Jul 18, 2009 14:34:02 GMT -5
She couldn't help but grin at him "I have seen many things in my line of work and outside. I am not afraid to see nudity, if you are indeed nude. I am Betazoid so nudity comes quite naturally for me" She stepped back a step so he could get his clothes on on his own, but she stood by to assist if needed "If you need help to walk, then I am here for that also. You can use me for support. I won't break" She said with a hint of humor
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Post by Lt. Ivery Kestra on Jul 18, 2009 14:39:56 GMT -5
He smiled as he shead the clothing of sickbay and put back on his own, "I am sure you will not break. For if that were the case you wouldn't be here." He dressed keeping on hand leaning on the biobed and then started to walk. "I could use your hand in getting to bed in my quarters or at least to the couch." He was walking as though he handn't walked in a while. "Will have to forgive the pace as I have not been myself."
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Post by Yeoman Azuma Stadi on Jul 18, 2009 14:46:59 GMT -5
She giggled a bit "No, I would not be here if I could break that easily" She watched him change and couldn't help but give him a critical eye, not as a counselor, but as a woman. When he finished, and started walking, she walked with him "I can assist you to the couch or the bed, whichever you prefer. I don't mind the pace. I am comfortable with it. I wouldn't want you to overexert yourself. As a doctor, you should know" She commented
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Post by Lt. Ivery Kestra on Jul 18, 2009 14:52:47 GMT -5
"I should know yet here I am in this condition." He smiled a bit as they left sickbay, "I didn't know consolers made such early morning house calls."
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Post by Yeoman Azuma Stadi on Jul 18, 2009 14:58:16 GMT -5
"Yes, here you are in this condition, which shows that even doctors can get sick and need medical attention from time to time. A doctor is human too" She walked with him at his pace. She pondered his words and considered her own "Normally, we don't but I was being receptive and that dream woke me up. So I thought I would come and investigate"
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Post by Lt. Ivery Kestra on Jul 18, 2009 15:01:16 GMT -5
His place is not too far away from sickbay as it is his way to be that close to his work at all times so the walk was short, "Normally I don't dream but tonight I desided to visit the past it seams." He then keyed the door open holding onto the door frame as he entered with her.
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Post by Yeoman Azuma Stadi on Jul 18, 2009 15:06:57 GMT -5
She stopped as they reached his quarters, noting it wasn't far from sickbay. Ke keyed in his code and walked in after he had "Normally, you don't dream? That's unusual. Usually all humanoids dream. As far as you visiting your past, from what I seen and felt, it was a pretty dark past."
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Post by Lt. Ivery Kestra on Jul 18, 2009 15:17:13 GMT -5
He made his way to the couch and sat on it loosening the neck of his shirt by unbuttoning a few buttons. "Normally I just rest and there is nothing there. Tonight a living nighmare of my past was there to greet me in my sleep. I did not think I would suvive it until I felt the hypo on my arm and knew I was back in the present, and heard your lovely voice."
He smiled, "Please sit and make yourself comfortable. Its the least I could do when waking you out of your sleep at this hour."
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Post by Yeoman Azuma Stadi on Jul 18, 2009 15:45:00 GMT -5
She followed him over to the couch and sat down in a chair next to the couch, watching him unbottom a couple buttons of his shirt to get more comfortable
She was still in her robe and she made sure it was secured to her person as not to show him more that was needed. She listened to his story, smiling a bit when he commented that her voice was lovely "Ivery, we are in the same professtion, you and I. We are both doctors but you heal the physical while I heal the mental. I am always on call, no matter the time, in case someone should need me, like yourself. Please, feel free to share your dreams, in words and I can assist in easing your mind and help free you of your troublesome past"
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Post by Lt. Ivery Kestra on Jul 20, 2009 12:13:15 GMT -5
"I dought anyone can free me from my past as it is the past. The part of me that makes me so driven now, and the person that I am."
He then paused to get more comfortable in the couch and to cough a little as his lungs were still recovering.
"Just sometimes the past that I have had in service to the Federation comes back to haunt me. Even though I am only an ensign my service to the Federation started long before this ship. Just I can't talk about it other to the people who were there and even then we have to be face to face with no possible room for someone else to overhear it."
He sighed and looked off to a corner of the room.
"So you can see as much as I want to poor out my life story. No matter how close I get to someone I can't do that. For the sake of the very thing that I served to protect I can't. Can't even tell the real reason for becoming a doctor to anyone. With all that to hide in life it makes it hard to find someone to share what is left of my life with. So, I have to be alone. Solitary in my remander stay in this world and dedicated to the work that I chose to take on."
He looked at her his eyes filled with pain and a bit of darkness in the background.
"I hope that exsplains why I must keep my past in the past and not bring it here."
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Post by Yeoman Azuma Stadi on Jul 20, 2009 13:21:43 GMT -5
She would merely nod in agreement as he spoke of not being able to be free of the past "You are right. The past is a part of you and makes you who you are today"
She sat with her legs crossed and watched as he got more comfortable "Just sometimes the past that I have had in service to the Federation comes back to haunt me. Even though I am only an ensign my service to the Federation started long before this ship. Just I can't talk about it other to the people who were there and even then we have to be face to face with no possible room for someone else to overhear it."
She nodded again, listening to what he had to say. She was a little surprised to hear that he was in the federation before becoming an ensign here on this ship. Perhaps he was in covert operations or a secret branch of Star Fleet? She shook her head of those thoughts and watched as he looked off in a corner
"So you can see as much as I want to poor out my life story. No matter how close I get to someone I can't do that. For the sake of the very thing that I served to protect I can't. Can't even tell the real reason for becoming a doctor to anyone. With all that to hide in life it makes it hard to find someone to share what is left of my life with. So, I have to be alone. Solitary in my remainder stay in this world and dedicated to the work that I chose to take on."
When he looked at her and she saw the pain in his eyes, the woman in her wanted so much to go to him and comfort him in her arms "Yes, I can understand how you are reluctant to want to talk about what has happened in your past and I respect that. It is in your past and it should stay there, as you say but I am believing that you have not gotten over what has happened and until you talk about it, it will haunt you. I will not pressure you into talking about your past and what had happened"
You don't have to remain alone because of your past. You have a choice. You can either let it haunt you or you can talk about it and perhaps find peace to where you can be with someone that you learn to care for. You're a handsome man, Ivery. Any woman would count herself lucky to have you at their side"
She couldn't help but blush at that, her Betazoid sense of telling the truth coming to the fore again. She felt it was true and told him so
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Post by Lt. Ivery Kestra on Jul 20, 2009 18:18:24 GMT -5
He chucked a bit, "Yeah, right. A Doctor who was a solider trained to kill as a mate would make any women fall head over heals in love."
He then shook his head and sighed, "I do what I do in order to make up for what I had to do when I wasn't in Starfleet and was serving the greater good at the time. That is why I became a Doctor as for my past."
He looked at her his eyes a bit more lighter, "That can never be taken away from me. What I did to survive and for the people who were under me to suvive and go home and kiss their wives is far worse then what you can even begin to draw up in your mind. I do not think, any women in her right mind would want a man who can and will hid things from her. Not by choice."
He then closed his eyes and leaned back into the couch not knowing that he sat up a bit, "I am alone and that is the way I will be till I am found somewere dead or killed in the line of duty. My past, the present, and what I am capable of in the fuchre prevents me from getting close to anyone. Not even my family, what is left of it, can be close to me. So you will have to excuse me if I do not hold your optomisum for improving were I am at."
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Post by Yeoman Azuma Stadi on Jul 20, 2009 20:38:29 GMT -5
She heard him chuckle and it wasn't a good chuckle, more of a chuckle of disbelief "Yeah, right. A Doctor who was a solider trained to kill as a mate would make any women fall head over heals in love." She frowned at that. He just told her that he wanted to leave his past behind and here he is trying to live it "I do what I do in order to make up for what I had to do when I wasn't in Star fleet and was serving the greater good at the time. That is why I became a Doctor as for my past."
As you have stated, Mr. Kestra, that is in your past. I doubt any woman would hold a grudge against you for things you have done in the past. She would want to live with you in the present and in the future"
She can see his eyes lightened up a little but hers darkened a bit, if one can tell that with black eyes "That can never be taken away from me. What I did to survive and for the people who were under me to survive and go home and kiss their wives is far worse then what you can even begin to draw up in your mind. I do not think, any women in her right mind would want a man who can and will hid things from her. Not by choice." She heard him comment further
"You had to do what you had to do in order to survive" She began to remember things of her past. Events that she was ashamed to reveal. The Battle of Betazed, The Dominion war, for instance. She was a woman grown but she had still been young when the Dominion invaded Betazed, her parents killed for resisting Dominion forces. She joined a group to fight the Dominion forces, honed her telepathic skills so she could kill without any remorse. She helped attack many Dominion camps, killed hundreds of Dominion soldiers and helped drive them from her home
She then shook her head to dismiss those thoughts, to bring herself back to the present "No, a woman would not want things hidden from her. She would want her bond mate to be open and honest with her. Of course, the same would go for a man as well. Would you not agree?"
What he said next froze her to the core. She didn't think she would feel that feeling again but here it was, threatening to freeze her where she sat "I am alone and that is the way I will be till I am found somewhere dead or killed in the line of duty. My past, the present, and what I am capable of in the future prevents me from getting close to anyone. Not even my family, what is left of it, can be close to me. So you will have to excuse me if I do not hold your optimism for improving were I am at."
She fought hard to control the emotions that were trying to trying to surface "I am a counselor and I can only help those that are willing to talk about and face what is troubling them and help them ease their trouble." She gave him a piercing look "You, Mr. Kestra, seem to believe in that truth that you are a hopeless cause, that no woman wants to be with you because of the past you went through. Everyone has a past that they are not proud of, even myself, but I am not going to sit and dwell in a past that cannot be changed. What can be changed is your believe that you can have a present and future that you can be happy in." She shook her head "All I feel from you is emptiness and grief of what you have done. Now you are a doctor and are helping those that are in need. That is what is important now"
She suddenly stood, feeling the need for some air before she is suffocated from the feelings she felt from Kestra "When you want to talk about this further, let me know" She then turned to go
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Post by Lt. Ivery Kestra on Jul 20, 2009 21:28:46 GMT -5
He looked at her as she turned to go, "And if you ever want to be true to be about how you feel about me then by all means come back consoler. I do not have to be a telepath to read your emotions as I have seen the look you gave me till I started talking about my past in many women and they're all the same. Walk away when I start to get close to breaking my stubern streak." He then got up off the couch grabing a blanket laying back down in it as if to go to sleep not sure if she would turn back and stay or if she would leave.
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Post by Yeoman Azuma Stadi on Jul 20, 2009 22:49:50 GMT -5
She nearly tripped over the coffee table when he heard him say "And if you ever want to be true to be about how you feel about me then by all means come back counselor." That simply caught her off guard and nearly took out the coffee table when she whirled back around "How I feel about you"? She said incredulously "I am being a counselor first, trying to help you with the problem that you are suffering from your past, trying to assist you in helping you get over that. I can't help you when you want to talk about it. Instead you offer me, and I quote ' "I am alone and that is the way I will be till I am found somewhere dead or killed in the line of duty. My past, the present, and what I am capable of in the future prevents me from getting close to anyone. Not even my family, what is left of it, can be close to me. So you will have to excuse me if I do not hold your optimism for improving were I am at." '. How do you think I am supposed to feel when i feel nothing but remorse and guilt of what you done in the past and given me the impression that you've given up on what you can have, a happy future with any number of women if you can just get over the pain of your past" She told him as he grabbed a blanket off the couch and layed down with it, with his back to her, she noted. That infuriated her even more and she wanted to kick the chair that she had sat in.
Instead, she wrapped her arms around herself and tryed to cool her raging emotions. Some counselor she is, she thought in the back of her mind
To be continued in "Crew Quarters"
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